Why paint, why even try?

It´s not even money in it. Just many thoughts, wondering, downfalls and misary. Ye, ofcourse it´s also interesting, colorful, absolute a most wanted to do.
Can´t ever stop, it´s like a poison in my body and my brain. Whit EVERY painting I learn something new, that I didn´t now before.
It just is. My life.